The best laid plans sometimes fail.  Or do they?

When my daughter started Kindergarten in August, I had planned on taking a week off for personal reflection and rejuvenation.   I was going to recharge my batteries and jump into my website work and household management with gusto.  That didn’t happen.

I found myself with all this “free” time on my hands and just kindof went crazy.  I slept late, a lot.  I wasted time browsing around the internet, a lot.  I went out, a lot.  All of a sudden being home completely alone didn’t seem like such a wonderful idea.  I felt isolated.  So, when friends said “let’s go”, I went. 

Once I finally had time to figure out what I wanted to do and how I was going to do it, I couldn’t do it.  I have been so busy taking care of everyone else for so long that I didn’t know who I was any more let alone what I wanted to do now that I was grown up.  Having my children at home was a really good excuse to hold me back, but my excuse was pretty much gone.

Best laid plans?  WHAT plans?  I hadn’t really made any plans.  I was floundering.  I was (am) depressed.

Looking back at the past few months I realize that I have accomplished nothing.  Nada.  Zip.  Zilch.  (Okay, I may be being a little too hard on myself here.)  Instead of picking up business and getting my house in order, it’s worse than it has ever been.  I was suffering.  My family was suffering.  Our finances were suffering.  I even considered going out and getting a job!  GASP!

What frustrates me the most is that I know better.  The whole concept between this blog and my website is about how to balance so THIS doesn’t happen.  But I guess there is my reality check.  It does happen.  It happens to the best of us.

So, what am I going to do about it?  I am going to continue to see the therapist that I began seeing a few months ago and I’m going to start following my own advice.  I’m going to go back to the basics.  I am going to re-read my 5 part email series on How to Achieve Life Balance.  (Look for the purple subscription box and join me!)  I am going back to scheduling work hours, setting daily goals, and holding myself accountable.

Again, I invite you to join me.  Accountability works so much better when you share it with others.